There was a time in my life where I would sit and cry myself to sleep because I felt inadequate. I tried to numb the pain by cutting myself just so I would not think about anything. The physical pain I caused was a temporary escape of the pain that I was feeling deep down inside. I just could not face myself. My heart was badly bruised because I felt that I was created differently from the rest and did not fit in. I have suffered through Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder and dep
She was lost as a little girl with no mother to teach her to grow into a woman, no mother to love her. Then there was her dad who lacked being a man, who grew older in age but never matured mentally. She found the love of her life, lost the love of her life to that typical thing that you know most guys run from. He was scared to feel any emotion even though he had found that one chick who made him feel like no other female has made him feel before, its when you know its real.
For years I've straddled the fence. Always going back and forth between who I thought I was and yet constantly being pulled to what God called me to be. My life was in a tug of war between the world and His word. But I thought that if I really surrendered to His call I'd miss out. If I stopped having sex I'd lose the guy, if I couldn't be around and do certain things I'd lose friends. So I'd do me sometimes and when I needed help I went to God! I never understood why during m